When will I come out

Have been going the wretched process of existence called janma. Have been introspecting onhoe how and when I will will transform everything I into nothing. When will I transform Existence into Living.Have wasted 64 years 364 days and a few minutes and seconds in meaningless existence. Discussing others, politics, engaged if fruitless arguments, discussing the defects in others and remembering my bad encounters with others.I am now a garbage of rubbish in the dimensions of the past. Woke up from my deep slumber like Rip Van Winkle(my favourite book as a child) now. Realised that my time is limited now with the sword of Death hanging above my head. This truth applies to all living creatures. Realised that the I should die,should engage only in meaningful conversations with either others or myself. A conversation follows the traffic rules of to and fro travel. Suffering from verbal diarrhoea since childhood I have consulted my Creator to enforce total constipation with respect to verbal output. The time has come for me to engage the Self in a meaningful pusrsuit of Self Realisation. The best path is the blissful path of silence which is the infinite reservoir of wisdom and bliss